I’m feeling useless, worthless, and I’m unfair to my family. I got more then I share. But that is what I have. Nothing and nothing more. Zero.

All I do is laying and complaining and arguing screaming 🙀

What am I screaming 🙀 for? Help? No. To be seen? Whom am I want to be seen by? It can’t be just my family. I need to be seen and appreciated by a community, a group of people that I can communicate and discuss about common issues.

There is a gourmet market 📌 close by. It also has stands in its parking lot for a fresh market. Flowers, fruits, local products might be there as well. I can ask what do they do there and how I can apply for a space.

I also pinned 📌 a flower shop. Where I can get in and talk about my work. Also I can ask if any help wanted?

There must be some other farm markets in Westfield. 📌 it is time to list and start reaching out every one of them to understand what I need to book a stand for my pots.

Then I might feel more real, more here.