Second week”s ✅ favorite 😍 task was trying a new technique. My first try was a bit sour.

Can take me somewhere else. Let’s leave this idea 💡 to rest.

On the other hand, candle holder is working pretty 😍 well . It also requires very small amount of mush. And I can do it on the table in my dining area, like solving sudoku.

Amazon’s recycling envelopes ✉️ are durable against water 💦 I experienced it while trying to mush them in my paper well. Didn’t worked, I couldn’t break them apart. So I believe it will be a great fit under these fences.

Either I cut the negative areas, or leave the paper as it is. Smooth light will come through. ⏰ I will try leaving some on and some off.

Checkmache

I have finished and send first pieces of checkmache to fully dry:

• ✅ The Queen 👸
• ✅ The King 👑
• ✅ first pawn ♟
• ✅ first rook 🗿

I started a new group of

• The King 👑 2 ⏰ needs to model
• First Knight 🎠 ✅ I covered the bottom with mush. Drying for the weekend. Then I will wait for next mashe circle ⭕️
• Second rook 🗿 ⏰ needs plastic pot and model.
• Second pawn ♟ ⏰ waiting for the next mashe circle ⭕️

The week flew by. I’m waiting, I’m playing… what am I doing? Where am I going? I have no map, no compass 🧭 All I have is instinct. All I do is trying to hear my hands 🙌 they want to do so much. They want to say so much, they want to try really hard and see what will happen…

My brain 🧠 should see and do something about it. Like open an Etsy store, talk to a florist neighbor, reach out Westfield social network, bazaars, farms, marketplaces…

I should put my mind in to how I pass my art to others, and open up space for new ones to come.

It looks so far from today but there, is the pathway. All I should do is walk that way.

The one I need most is nobody but myself. I need me to be with me. I need me to be in charge. I need to hear my voice, my call ☎️ to action. It all starts with finding me, being me.

I need to clear the fog 😶‍🌫️ see what makes me hide 🫣 understand what scares me 😱

Is it so silly 😝 what I’m working on? Is it worthless? Is it all same old story I’m repeating… it may or may not be, but it makes me smile 😊 when I’m on my usual responsibilities. It makes me smile when I heard something upsetting. I can laugh 😂 at something that usually makes me piss off.

I catch the time. I feel the time passing. I feel traveling in the same train that everyone is on. Mondays, Fridays, 7 days in a week and a month is almost 4 weeks. I can see what I can fit in time. What marks can I leave on time and space?

Now, and here, I realized I feel lonely and abandoned but also strong 💪 and capable.